I could be labelled the world's biggest empty-promiser and liar

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Once again, it is time for some personal inputs on my dusty forsaken blog.

Been feeling really down lately due to many known and unknown factors that I can hardly contain them all in my puny brain.

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It scares me to see how much I have changed- to someone who is no longer dedicated to her work and personal values. And guess what, I dont even know who I have morphed to...

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At the low end of my rollercoaster career, I did ask myself "what I am doing here when I could be somewhere else-probably 100x better" but my career gives me so much gratification that sometimes it send me weeping a bucketfull.

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Why do I have to always give out empty promises to my friends and love ones when I know I do not have the tenancy to complete them?

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Where is my past confidence? Just when someone prettier or capable shows up, all that shallow inferior complexity would creep up and swallow me alive.

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And why am I not treasuring all that I have? Gosh I hate myself! I really need to pull myself together once and for all.

Wake up Michel. I only have one life to live.

I got no time for petty games and jealousy thoughts.